First of all let me start by saying that my husband is the most dedicated, hardest working person that I know. Once he gets his mind set on something, there is nothing that can stop him!!
Laney Grace is turning 4 this weekend, she has been "planning" her bday ALL year. For the past 3 years, Nick has taken on a big...HUGE project right before her bday. The first year a fence, then a double deck, and this year....our hill. He started this massive project Saturday, I woke up to find this huge machine in the backyard and dirt all around. As the weekend progressed the dirt turned to mud and continued to take over the backyard. I could not help but think about how this related to my life right now and the promise that God has given me.
"I waited patiently for the LORD; And He heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD."
You never know when you will wake up and your life will change drastically. Your house might burn to the ground, you might lose your job, you might get in a wreck or you might lose someone you love. In Job 7:7 Job says "O God, remember that my life is but a breath.." I plan to read that book of the bible today. It's an amazing story about how Job chose to praise God in the midst of his extreme and excruciating circumstances.
As I was waiting to hear the results Friday, several things went through my mind. "What if it's back? That one word...Cancer, will it always be something that I fear or will I choose to embrace God's sovereignty?"
I am clinging to God's word and trusting that He will set my feet on a rock and my eyes on Him. I can already think of the song that he has given me. Here are the words so far (this is the song "I'm still yours" by Kutless.) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uVyAMvx4PdQ
If You washed away my vanity If You took away my words If all my world was swept away Would You be enough for me? Would my beating heart still sing?
If I lost it all Would my hands stay lifted To the God who gives and takes away
If You take it all This life You've given Still my heart will sing to You
When my life is not what I expected The plans I made have failed When there's nothing left to steal me away Will You be enough for me? Will my broken heart still sing?
If I lost it all Would my hands stay lifted To the God who gives And takes away
If You take it all This life You've given Still my heart Will sing to You
Even if You take it all away You’ll never let me go Take it all away But I still know
Thanks for all of yall that have been praying for me and checking in on me!! My friend Kristin came up last night and woke up early this morning to go with me to my Drs. appointment. She's such a sweet, dedicated friend!! Today I had my full body scan. I got the results soon after. The Dr. said that it was clear!! I am so relieved and thankful! The blood work came back a little high, they wanted it to be between 0-2 and it was a 2.9. There is a team of Drs.(endocronologist, ENT, nuclear med. and oncology) that will meet next week to discuss the next step. I may have to repeat the diet, thyrogen injections, and all the bloodwork again in three months. I am praying that is not the case. I will go back to Emory Thurs. and should know more then. I'm going to go EAT now, I forgot how good food is! It has so much flavor again!!
Spent another looong day at Emory. I fasted this morning b/c I wasn't sure if I was supposed to eat before the radioactive iodine dose. I've had two injections that basically make me hypothyroid.
I went to get my blood work and had to wait an hour. After that, I ran over to nuclear medicine and filled out paperwork. They were waiting on the results of my blood work including a pregnancy test. They are not allowed to administer my treatment until they get the results of that. So after waiting about an hour wondering why it was taking so long, I was told that the labs systems were down. I decided to go over to the other building to find out myself. After talking to several people we discovered someone had dropped the ball and not sent it over. I walked back across the building to the hospital, passing snack machines and looking away b/c I knew I couldn't eat yet. I returned to nuclear medicine and waited for another hour until the Dr. called me back.
While in the waiting room, I met a lady who was having her second treatment. She has had cancer for a year and a half and they found more after her yearly whole body scan. It was sobering talking to her and realize that I am just days away from hearing results.
The whole time I was on pins and needles thinking something was wrong with the results from the pregnancy test. When I found out the results were negative, a man walked in carrying a metal canister, and everyone backed out of the room. I knew this was my cue to swallow the pill quickly and leave! This time the dose was I 131, its purpose is to attack any cancer cells. My body has been deprived of iodine and the pill supplies dose of radioactive iodine. If there is cancer, the cells will absorb it and the scan will show areas where the uptake is.
I asked them to measure how radioactive I was. They came in with a red and yellow "gun" pointed it at me and told me that it was a 1.5. That is how much radiation I was putting out. They consider a 7 to be "dangerous." It is a really strange feeling to know that I have radiation inside me...crazy.
They told me not to eat for another two hours,which made me so sad. At that point I felt a migraine coming on so I found a spot to stop for a few hours just to rest and relax and take in all that had happened today.
Whew....ready to start a new day tomorrow! No Drs. appointments until Friday!
I'm updating this blog with Hallie in my lap, so it may be short! I've been constantly listening to this new song and wanted to put it the lyrics on here. I've also been listening to the book Crazy Love (on CD). They have reminded me of how incredible and powerful God is. He knows us and sees what our future holds, yet we question his choices or doubt his sovereignty. I've spent the last few days at Emory getting ready to have my scan this Friday. So far, I've had bloodwork and my two injections. I've been on a diet for 2 weeks, it's really been so much easier this time around. My mom made some delicious bread and my friends from High School suprised me with an array of delicious foods that they made for me themselves!! I was very impressed and grateful that they took the time to do that for me. I am so blessed!
Tomorrow I will get my dose of radioactive iodine. Friday is the whole body scan.
I hope this blog provides an opportunity to stay in touch with me and my family as we go through this journey. It's all been an overwhelming experience even though we are just at the beginning. I was recently diagnosed with thyroid cancer or more specifically, papillary cancer. My goal is to keep the blog updated so that our friends and family can follow us as we progress over the next few months. I have several people that will be helping to keep the blog updated with what's going on especially on days that I am not up to it. I feel so blessed to have so many people that have sent their love and prayers. Please know that I feel them all and keep them close to my heart. God is teaching me each day that He is sovereign and has ultimate control of our lives...to everything is to His glory.